#49

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

I hate myself
and everything I write
(this included)
I regret every decision that led me here
and I just want this to be over


Thursday, November 21, 2013

So tired of caring
I don't want to feel
Why is my heart still beating?
I no longer have a use for it;
I died long ago

I wish I didn't care
About anyone
Anything
At all

I want a hard heart
A calcified stone
Buried beneath my ribs
Cool and unmoving

Or

I want to tear it out
And give it to you
As a gift or a burden
For you to do with as you see fit
Because you're the only one
I've ever wanted to have it
Even if you never give me yours in return

#48

Monday, November 4, 2013

Pre-exhaustion
Anticipating the stress of the upcoming months
Trying to keep my head where my hands are
Unable (unwilling?) to take the advice
That I so freely give to others
I am a sham
And all my thoughts are snake oil

#47

Sunday, November 3, 2013


Losing Daylight Saving

Gained an hour
Lost a life
Lost all power
Gained more strife
I was told exactly how I think
Now I have no ability to drink
Monochromatic mind
Limping, crawling, blind
Crutchless
Touchless
Static
With so much time