#84

scraps and ephemera


Tuesday, April 14, 2015

my parents were parents



Monday, June 1, 2015

Hymn to JF

teeth pressed to eyelids
enough to grip but not to burst
lips wrapped around orbit
then sucking
sucking
swallowing
ocular globe
gelatinous orb
sticking in throat
choked down
stomached sea-urchin
hopefully absorbed
because i want to see
the way he sees

"Lord, do not judge me for what I've done, but what I could have done had you been more successful in your design of me."



Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Isoprophlex

Aphex liquids
while I stumble and stagger
(seeing) clear will make me go blind
if I try hard enough
...but only if I try hard enough



Friday, August 21, 2015

Scott v Flenderson

Why am I the way I am?
I hate so much about the things that I choose to be

Except...
Fuck you
You had me
Now deal with it
Or don't
But make up your fucking mind



Thursday, September 24, 2015

Everything I absorb makes me idealize nostalgia
Reminiscing about the present in the now
Living tomorrow looking back
I can't wait to fondly remember this
When do I live in the moment?
...



Sunday, September 27, 2015

crickets outside window
wrapped inside the fan
and
white noise blurs libido
calms the storm again



Monday, November 23, 2015

...I work to buy weed to smoke while I'm at work (and away from work) so I don't care about work and smoke weed to work for weed to smoke to not care about working to buy weed to smoke to not care that...



Thursday, January 26, 2016

I used to laugh every time I lied
Now I do it thoughtlessly
Effortlessly
Habitually
(and probably obviously)

"a cypher
wrapped
in an enigma
smothered
in secret sauce"
~Jimmy James



Tuesday, May 10, 2016

step out the side door into grey damp, heavy and unseen. suffocating in the atmosphere but raising a cigarette to lips regardless, flame ignited and cupped by curled fingers as it fleetingly graces the open end. first breath of smoke promptly exhaled without registering on taste buds, followed quickly by a second drawn into flesh sacs caged behind ridges of bone, choking tissue, smothering cells; voluntary self-infection as sham nutrition.