Tuesday, May 12, 2014
Beladegeist (a moribund suicide fantasy)
And when it ends
I will haunt you
As a ghost that isn't there -
An apparition of a shade
Crouched in the darkness of your memory
Unknown...
Until you kiss him
And taste my bile-like bittnerness in his mouth,
Until he speaks
And you hear my cries of anguish in his voice,
Until he caresses you
And you feel my long-dead warmth in his fingertips.
Until you awake one night
And for an infinite second
Find me laying next to you
Eyes wide and staring with accusation,
Maw open in a silent moan of agony,
Until I metamorphosize back into his sleeping form
Leaving you shaken and doubting,
Wondering what you could have done to prevent this;
It's too late.
I'm gone, entirely
Existing only in your memory
A spirit trapped in your mind
From which there is no exorcism.
You will only find relief
Once you've joined me.
