#102

 [10.25.2021]

as for steps...

i don't know

        i drink much less
        beer instead of booze, too
    (but maybe still too often)

                i like myself more
                i've made new friends
            (mostly online)

                    i try to leave the house
                (every once in a while)

                        i'm probably taking a new job
                    (stocking produce at Cub)

                            i run a semi-successful record label
                        (well, cassette label, in a very niche genre)

but i still keep tripping
on the thought
that i'll hurt
you

#101

 [10.17.2021]

i played an avian board game
with facts about birds
on all the cards
and i couldn't believe
how much you taught me

[10.25.2021]

i haven't written
because i haven't had the words
to say i'm afraid
i'll just abandon you
again

...and aren't you afraid, too?

sometimes i wonder
how you could trust me
but maybe i'm projecting

regardless
the world would be
a lesser place
without you