[c. July 2020]
i swear i haven't changed
in thirty years
still just a sad awkward kid
with a perpertually nervous stomach
clinging to the same teddy bear
a breaking rock
against the waves of despair
[07.29.20 & 09.14.20]
circling the lake post-midnight
scream-crying from fear and heartache
so close and so far
and i realize now
a decade-plus on
(though it may be under
the lake's false name)
part of me is circling still
...and i'd give anything to make it
halt
for everyone's sake
---------------
"i wish we'd never met, then met today"
