#54

Thursday, February 6, 2014


Belated Eulogy for JM

The saddest poet to walk this earth
    (or any other)
Guitar strummed miserable and bleak
Voice somehow strong and broken
    (as though despair was your religion,
    HOPELESS your sole creed;
    an unwavering faith that things
    won't work out)
Notes made lonelier by tape hiss
Because it formed an outline of a solitary man
Whether sitting in a bedroom
Or standing at the front of a bar
Alone, even when surrounded by magnolias
Finding solace only in a mutual friend
Who is the worst kind of
   backstabbing,
   two-faced,
   truthless,
   bastard.
And still, you continued to meet with him
Regularly
As do I.
We never met
But I feel like we would have understood one another
Even though we both feel tragically unique
I'm following your trail for the moment
I only hope I find a new path
Before it's too late

"there is nothing reliable like change
be your own guide"


Friday, February 7, 2014

I want to wait forever
Because I'm comfortable with this pain
...well, it's better than change, anyway


Tuesday, February 11, 2014


Buying Records on eBay

Nostalgic for nostalgia
Using the present
To make the future
Like my past


Wednesday, February 12, 2014


in answer to your question

You are intelligent, funny, creative, compassionate, unique, wonderful, talented, fascinating
You are gorgeous (despite what you think of yourself)
You care
You listen
Your poetry is as beautiful as it is heartbreaking, it's influenced me, and I wish I could write like you
Your photography is amazing
You've made me appreciate all the beauty in the world so much more
My life is better because you are a part of it
You've taught me so much
You've made me stronger
You are deserving of love (please don't ever forget that)
You crashed into my life and shook me so deeply with who you are that even if I didn't want to love you, I couldn't help it
You've inspired me
You've done so many cool things in your short life
You are you, and that is more than enough
To put it simply:
Because


Friday, February 14, 2014

living vicariously through your pain
as if i don't have enough of my own

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two statements

I love you both.
Please break up.